I was on Skype with my sister this morning and she reminded me that it was more than two months that I didn't post anything. So here I am. And first of all I have to apologize for this long absence.
Things lately have really changed a lot and my journey has took unexpected twists. In all the whirlwind of big and small changes, sometimes I find it hard to give a logical sequence to all the thoughts that crowd my brain and to all the feelings that make my heart beat. And maybe that's why I didn't write for so long.
But as you can imagine, my head never stopped producing ideas.
I have had an image stuck in my mind for a long time. We all are like X and Y. Yes, I am talking about mathematics. I like to think that everybody is an "unknown" for the world outside. But there is a formula, which could include factors like time and place, that gives as a result the crossing of the two variables. I don't really know if this is valid or existing for the mathematical world, and therefore I will avoid trying to give a scientific name to it. However you call this formula, be it destiny or life itself, I can tell you that in the world of people and not numbers, this is something real and verifiable.
I saw it with my eyes. And let me tell you more: I am the living proof of this phenomenon. For me human relationship are weird in some way. We all are so different and far from each other in many points of view, like islands, but we manage to create bonds in one way or another. Maybe it's because we navigate in the same ocean of events and possibilities which is life. And the thing I find more incredible is that this bonding force has the same power of dividing and distance one from another, like if it was at the same time destroying storm and kind creator.
At the moment I can only tell that something went wrong with my formula, because time and place are not by my side. But this is happening also in the life of some of my friends.
I met a Y. And this is something I wasn't expecting. As much as it was unforeseen, this crossing of paths is one of the best thing that could happen. I am happy. And for now this is all that matters. I want to stop worrying about what is to come and fearing the future. I'll breath all the happiness and joy I can. I will let it invade all the corners of my heart.
If there is a X, most of the time there will be a Y. And this notion also includes things like the contrasting feelings of joy and pain. We can not decide to be happy without the acceptance of difficulty. It is take or leave. No compromises or exceptions.
Our world is in some way drawing the pain as something undesirable. Starting from the families who try to protect the children in any possible way, ending in a society where it's always better to put on a fake smile and hide your problems, instead of feeling free to live the so called "negative" emotions. One of my biggest fear is that we are going to generate a society which is not allowed to feel, anesthetized. A society like the one imagined by Aldous Huxley in the novel "Brave New World", where people take a drug called "soma" to avoid having feelings. I am not catastrophist. I have faith that if we start seeing all the negatives as a confirmation of the positives, even the same concept of "negative" will be regarded as necessary.
Ok.. Back to X and Y, I only have one more thing to say. If you find one Y or X, the only question you have to ask yourself is: does it makes me happy now? If the answer is yes, don't walk away from it.
As you can see, I have a lot to say.. In the next weeks I'll try to be more constant and reveal you more of my mind chaos.
Have a nice day everybody!
But as you can imagine, my head never stopped producing ideas.
I have had an image stuck in my mind for a long time. We all are like X and Y. Yes, I am talking about mathematics. I like to think that everybody is an "unknown" for the world outside. But there is a formula, which could include factors like time and place, that gives as a result the crossing of the two variables. I don't really know if this is valid or existing for the mathematical world, and therefore I will avoid trying to give a scientific name to it. However you call this formula, be it destiny or life itself, I can tell you that in the world of people and not numbers, this is something real and verifiable.
I saw it with my eyes. And let me tell you more: I am the living proof of this phenomenon. For me human relationship are weird in some way. We all are so different and far from each other in many points of view, like islands, but we manage to create bonds in one way or another. Maybe it's because we navigate in the same ocean of events and possibilities which is life. And the thing I find more incredible is that this bonding force has the same power of dividing and distance one from another, like if it was at the same time destroying storm and kind creator.
At the moment I can only tell that something went wrong with my formula, because time and place are not by my side. But this is happening also in the life of some of my friends.
I met a Y. And this is something I wasn't expecting. As much as it was unforeseen, this crossing of paths is one of the best thing that could happen. I am happy. And for now this is all that matters. I want to stop worrying about what is to come and fearing the future. I'll breath all the happiness and joy I can. I will let it invade all the corners of my heart.
If there is a X, most of the time there will be a Y. And this notion also includes things like the contrasting feelings of joy and pain. We can not decide to be happy without the acceptance of difficulty. It is take or leave. No compromises or exceptions.
Our world is in some way drawing the pain as something undesirable. Starting from the families who try to protect the children in any possible way, ending in a society where it's always better to put on a fake smile and hide your problems, instead of feeling free to live the so called "negative" emotions. One of my biggest fear is that we are going to generate a society which is not allowed to feel, anesthetized. A society like the one imagined by Aldous Huxley in the novel "Brave New World", where people take a drug called "soma" to avoid having feelings. I am not catastrophist. I have faith that if we start seeing all the negatives as a confirmation of the positives, even the same concept of "negative" will be regarded as necessary.
Ok.. Back to X and Y, I only have one more thing to say. If you find one Y or X, the only question you have to ask yourself is: does it makes me happy now? If the answer is yes, don't walk away from it.
As you can see, I have a lot to say.. In the next weeks I'll try to be more constant and reveal you more of my mind chaos.
Have a nice day everybody!
